love

Love suffers long, and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails…. And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
* The Bible, 1 Corinthians 13:4 – 8 (New King James Version)

If you really love someone or something, sometimes that someone/something is the one you’ll be really afraid of being hurt by. This makes you afraid of loving.
That’s the different between our imperfect love with God’s Perfect love. He loves us, and yes being hurt by our sins, but He keeps loving us.

the reason to leave

kemaren2 gw bingung soal masa depan gw gara2 ada yang nanya.
abis lulus mau ngapain?
okay, let’s see gimana keadaan gw sekarang.
nyokap gw tinggal di bdg, like she is always, i never have a problem with her. In fact, its great to have her around. but the worst is bokap,yang mestinya taon depan pensiun tapi malah mempercepat pensiun seenaknya dengan bolos ngantor berbulan2 sejak pindah ke sini agustus kemaren.
sialnya, my life was not as easy as before. sekarang gw ga ngekos tapi tinggal di rumah, yang lagi2 dibeli bokap seenaknya.
setengah jam ke kampus.setengahjam pulang kampus.
kadang dalam seminggu, gw bisa perang ama bokap (yang darah tinggi )berkali2, batas waktu perangnya gak tentu lagi. waktu gw kebuang utk denger omelan dia berjam-jam. ad trust me, berantem ama dia means, gw mesti siap2 kena lempar(walau cuman anceman, dia ga bakal berani ngelakuinnya), diam, menunduk, dan mendengarkan (tapi bisanya gw gak dengerin). in the other day he would say sorry, and treat me nice.
Hard to say, tapi dari kecil gw selalu diperlakuin begini. i have 40 percent of great memories with him, the rest were all about wars.
kebalikan dengan nyokap, gw selalu kompak ama nyokap gw. she is my best friend.
sifat kita sama. dan bisa di tebak bokap juga sering berantem ama nyok gw. cuman gw juga bingung mereka udah nikah selama 42 tahun tau…

terus…
apa yang bisa gw lakuin setelah lulus nanti?
gw emang berencana ga langsung ninggalin bandung setelah lulus ntar.
pengen masi di sekitar kampus nyari pngalaman jadi staff lab tau crewnya dosen, baru lanjut s2.
tapi gw gak pengen juga tinggal ama ortu lagi
jadi,ninggalin nyokap bokap gitu aja?
yea they’re already old.
one of them is my number1 enemy, the other is my number1 friend.
but still, they both are my parents.
and leaving the house later won’t be easy…

dilema tau jadi anak bungsu.
gw berasa dikhianati sodara2 yang dengan gampangnya bisa pergi gitu aja.

tapi, normal people should leave their parent’s house after being old enough right?
siapapun itu, anak bungsu kek ato anak angkat, selama lo masih cukup sehat dan bisa mandiri.
And trust me, i cant wait that time to leave everytime dad and i fight.
but then i see my old mum, and i just don’t want to leave.
lagian 1-2 tahun lagi bokap mana kuat terus2an berantem ama gw. doi bukan tipe orang yang hidup sehat.
kalo udah tepar, bisa tidur seharian.

one day i have a conversation with mum.
sharing my feeling about all of this.
yang gw tangkep dari dia,
“pergi aja, i can always handle your old man and my self here. what do you think that 42 years means?”
then i suddenly realize.
that mum just want me to be happy.
i never have to be responsible for other person happiness.
i just have to pray for their happiness while i’m living my live to the fullest..
that’s why, i decided to leave them, after i finish my 4th year of study.
to live my own life.
dan meski masih kira2 satu taun lagi, gw mesti serius dari sekarang.
i need to earn my own money. preparing my self to live independently.

Re-act-ion

for not being naive, even to the most people i hate, to the people who hurts me,
i cant really work out my plans of revenge.  I did planned but never realized it. Not even once.
In the end, i will just take one step back, quietly, away from that people,
then, run away to the other way,
to move on my life.
This past few month, suddenly i know, i’m very good at doing this sort of running away things.
I just want everything to be normal. I dont want people knows me as the ‘victim’.
My self arogancy, yes!…
I’ll stay silence…
i’ll act like, hey, i’m fine, those doesn’t hurt me at all….
I just want everything to be okay.
I dont want any war fight.
tough it just hurts me even deeper…
and it slows my move to go on my life…
Stay out of conflict, maybe the best words to describe it.
the thing i cant learn from this attitude,is how to forgive easily.
I’ll might be look okay from from outside, but my hearts still can produce forgiveness.
I need to do some treat to this attitude tough. haha…

10 Random Facts/Habits of Me

wheuw… gw kira beginian cuma ada di bulbo friendster atow note nya facebook… (yhx alot kak Tia buat peer blogging nya ini…)

so mari kita repost2-an…haa, praturannya ada di bawah ini, silakan baca,

dan ten-rand-things bout me-nya ada di bawahnya lagi! enjoy!

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# Each blogger must post these rules.

# Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.

# Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.

# Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged and to read your blog

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#1  i like spending one warm sunny day playing outside with my friends or family. i dont really like it when its raining, tough i know i should be gratefull for everything… (jump to #10)

#2   i prefer beaches for vacations.

#3  i’m 16 in 20, and kinda not grown up…

#4 i try hard not to ruinning someone’s feeling about me… but i realize that i never need to be responsible for that. i just need to do everything responsibly right.

#5  i hate it when people added ‘e’ at the end of my name, like ‘anggie..’

#6 i hate to be underestimated, wee…, every boddy does… haha

#7  i’m addicted to sweets! ice cream, candies, gummy,chocolate,etc

#8 i wanna go to france, studying Genie(geotechnical engineering)

#9 i fall for one guy,  and can’t even have any logical reason for that. is that normal??

#10  i’ma plegma.

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Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

from the film Meet Me In St. Louis
Hugh Martin, Ralph Blane 1943

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
our troubles will be out of sight
Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on,
our troubles will be miles away.

Here were are as in olden days,
happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
gather near to us once more.

Through the years we all will be together
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself a merry little Christmas now.

ini lagu natal yang paling sering dputer di hape. wuahaa!

kalo boleh nambah lagi xmas wishnya,

I wish i can go to the final advent sunday church, this Dec 21 with _ _ _ _

hehe…if the Fates allow….

POstingan Yang mestinya dipost hari jumat 3minggu lalu!

Seneng deh, hari ini cerah.

Sayang aja gak ketemu si cumi. Haha.

Eniwey, today, gw bikin heboh gara2 rambut gw dikriting ikal.

Komennya macem2;

Gi kok jadi gitu rambutnya? (gw bilang aja; iyah, abis kena badai!)

Ih lucu deh! (gw bales dg senyum2 kuda)

Wah anggi, beda! (gw bales dg nyengir2 kuda

Cieh, jadi sexy gitu! (ini paling bikin gw shock! H.A.L.O???)

Abis make over ya gi? (yeah, thanks anyway!)

Anggi, hari ini kamu the kenapa? Ada acara? Meni rapih? (huahahaha. Ada2, ada acara santap siang bersama bos mafia Gina dan anaknya Sekar serta ketua Geng Nero Renny, the barbarian Trio plus2, dan kami membicarakan kontrak kerjasama bareng penyelundup black diamond kawasan afrika,si Afie, ini mode sok jd “kriminal kelas kakap” lg on)

Dst dst

Well, diluar rambut gw yang di ‘rapih’in, hari ini gw masih have a taste of ‘everyday anggi’ pas ke kampus. Masi pake jeans kaos ransel.

Tapi intinya, seru juga, keluar bentar dari rute normal kita dalam hidup.

.Anggi+ kaos+jeans+sepatu keds+rambutacak2+muka kucel after begadang/kebanyakan tidur+ransel.

That’s my everyday wardrobe anyway.

Why can’t i have the same?

I’m now having activities on 3some different organizations. One of it, makes me feel uneasy to give my loyalty. While the other two. They’re just like second family of me. And as you know, wherever you think you are accepted by the hospitality of family, your heart will go to that place.
The one i tell you on the first place is related to my previous post titled’semu’. Compared to the othe two, i could never want anything more less than leaving the first org-. But the Bad is, i’m having pretty Big responsibility in it. That means i cant leave. I cant see a real team work in it. Even one day i felt like ,do i have some friend in this place? Dont they respect me enough, am i exist in their eyes? Its true that i dont talk as good as others in that organization. All those philosophy, and big talk that mean alot for others,they just mean nothing. I got my own way. Think simple but smart and effective.then Act.
Yeah. However they treat me, i ll leave, after my job wrapped. Then Ill focused on my study and the other two org-. Where i know i can be totally loyal. Where my all time teammates are. I know i gotta get Through this, to teach me of being patience. Ill just do my job in my style,in Anggi’s way. Thats it.

Christmas wish!

Santa, All i want for christmas is  …..

–well actually it used to be ‘are’ rather than ‘is’–

1. christmas-eve-an bareng keluarga, dan geraja bareng tgl 25nya.

2. makan nastar satu toples dan makan masakan Nyokap ampe buncit.

3. Mengerti semua matkul yang bakal di UASin setelah Xmas Holiday abis (jadi liburanya ga perlu nyambil belajar)

4. punya nike airforce ungu yang super lucu, yang waktu itu gw liat di nike pvj.

5. Main di pantai ato anywhere yang anget!!! im sick of this cold days in bandung! dingin dan ujan melulu…

Hehe, kalo jaman SD, Gw naro ini tulisan di kertas trus ditaro di piring yang ada cookies, Kopi, dan Jerami. Berharap tu mbah jenggot berbaju merah nan baik hati dateng bawa permintaan gw beneran…

Tapi setelah gw tambah tua,gw tau, esensi Santa Claus yang sebenernya sekarang.

hehe, that everyone can be Santa Claus!

Just have a little pure and warm heart of giving to others.A little of Love.

seperti yang diajarin Jesus Christ dari dulu. memberi,mengasihi.

so, gimana kalo my last wish is

6. I want everyone, feels the joy of Christmas

(termasuk si dia, yang senyum aja jarang! Hahh Awas yah!)

Joeyux Noel!!

Semu

lagi stuck di kepanitiaan yang menjenuhkan.

tapi barusan dapet pencerahan. Dapat masukkan dari salah satu dosen Arsi, yang jago soal konstruksi bambu.

Kayaknya, tanggungan yg gw ambil di kepanitian itu bakalan seru!

Wah… Semoga bener aja. Biarpun sistem kepanitiaan gak sejalan ama hati gw. Yaudah jalanin. Pertimbangannya sih ada temen2 gw juga di dalamnya….

Tapi ngerasa lbh engen ngabisin waktu di tempat lain, ngebasket,nge UBG, dimana temenan itu gak semu, ngumpul di KP GKI, seseruan sekaligus menuhin kebutuhan rohani.

Pokoknya setelah ini beres. Ingin ngejalanin 1,5 tahun terakhir di itb dengan kuliah lebih sungguh2, Jadi asisten dosen, ngebasket dan ngurusin UBG,samaa pelayanan di KP GKI MY. Udah cukup. Gw capek ada di ’sistem’ yang lagi dijabanin sekarang. Sistem semu yang ngebosenin. yang kebanyakan omong.